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12:17 am
[Link] | i got my ass kisked by a mountian 2 day. went snowboarding 1st day bak in a uyear was rough. i couldnt feel my leggs.
Current Mood:  stoned
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12:39 am
[Link] | well went christmas shopping today. got laura and alex gifts hope they like em. OMG had the worts week possible. ur rite laura worst possible experience. fucking parnioid dont know liek what 2 do. people knowing is the worst thing. thank god 4 my friends. love u guys so much dont know what id do with out u. alex how could u do that 2 mindy lol. went 2 the game with drunken zach w/his mom rite there lol funni and uh drizzle alex wtf. i dunno never heard it must be like a dunzo thing (laguna beach fans). aww i miss cheer . i like volleyball and evryhtign and i would want 2 let down the team i've dont that to enough people but allowing other people to convince me and control my decision iver not doing somehting i love more then anyhting i think was the stupidest things ive ever done. i still have allstar which im thank ful for and love but i miss skool 2 totaly different experiences. i just cant see me not cheering like i dont belive that was so unlike me despite what any one says no offence 2 ne1 on volley ball but like birng it on i am cheerleading. it defines a big part of me and feel somethings missing. i let all the political bull shit get the best of me and i cnat belive it . it makes me want 2 scream just thinking about it!!! i let others stop me from doing what i love and i cant belive. its so much out of my character. i care so much about cheer and i dont know what i was thinking .... enough bitching
sleep. good.
Current Mood: fukin pissed
Current Music: just like you- three days grace
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11:11 pm
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more song lyrics
does it make you sad
or does it make you happy
to know. that i wont. becoming.
home.
and does it make you cry.
lie awake ans wonder why.
and do you wish. you would of
done. something diffrent.
i walk the line. tired. faithless. crying.
i have nothing left. to give.
nothing left to touch. or feel.
the tears gone to cry. nothing
left to. dry my.
eyes.
i walk the line. tired. faithless. crying.
i screaming for dear life. praying.
for one last time. if only. i could.
find the strength to move. scream.
to live again. i want to breathe
agian.
break. the chains.
and.
smile. cause . i know.
its time to let things go.
end the lies.
tired.
faithless.
crying.
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09:52 pm
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amzing songs
I?ve been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I?ve come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I?ve been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can?t help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more
You don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream, and dream I do
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know and all we had
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me
You're taking over me
You're taking over me
perfect decribtion on my life currently expect IT's taken over me!
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08:07 pm
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sry its been so long
um catch up
We went to see mitch hedburg & steven lynch
I saw this guy and he was wearing a leather jacket and eating a hamburger and drinking milk and i said u are a cow mothafucka dont fall a sleep or i will tip u ova
is that a hippo or just a really cool opotimus
alex-mysterios bitch
me-under 18 groupie girl
laura- the drunk nobody
Damn thats ugly baby Damn thats an ugly ass baby
Erin- thanx for the pimp ass slippers im wearing them 2 skool
Current Mood:  tired
Current Music: chevelle-dont fake this
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11:35 pm
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TiredAsFUck
im veyr tired i just got bak from NYC yesterday which was amazing. laura ur aunts so cool she amzing and Wickeds the best show eva evry1 see it. cheer was ok 2nite we had fun doing the chick flip iwanna try it but im 2 fat ive flyed b4 but i dunno maybe thats just me. ne1 can do it. its fun. funny at practice me and erin( base and bak) reload tap bak better then the flyer problem there lol. amber erin & tine we need 2 do ps(partnerstunt) asap we have till nov6 to get a routine 2 getha............lets see what else is goign on.........i dont inderstand how sumthign can make u so happy and so sad at the same time(sum ppl u know what im tlkaing about)well sad yes but more just hard 2 deal with...........ALx i cant belive i missed it but hopefully htere will be a repeat this weekend after the game. and uhh ur taking after me now. i heard laura held ur hair bak lol dont take after me in that aspect plz!... when ur drunk sure but dont make it a habbit i know u nevr would though. were gonna have so much fun on friday! cant wait i ll tune u in on me and Lauras plan.
Current Mood:  Full-NotGood-LOL
Current Music: Bulimic-TheUsed
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06:29 pm
[Link] | um lets see whats goign on. um i lost 6 pound s last week:) that was sweet. AMber: how'd u do that um....................... lol our parnter stunts gonna be sweet at least the baskets are- ambe ri can see myself lol. watch real world omg sarahs been through so much- luv that show i cant belive shes been raped i feel so bad 4 her. and 2 be mia for that long omg! i have so much fukkin hw im gonna scream its 1140 and i havent started shit i think im gonna wake up a 5 and do it!
Current Music: american idiot- greenday
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06:18 pm
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a message to you
this is for a certian guy u know who u are!!!!!!!!!!!! how hurt me and then my best friend i thougth u changed but ur still an ass!!!!!!!!!!!
I know what you're trying to do
Make me fall for you
Oh why
I'd like you to leave
And leave me alone
Everywhere I go,
You'll always be there,
Try to give you hints to leave
(But it's like it came of the other air)
I don't care what you do
I don't care about you
I don't care get a clue
Cause I don't really like you, I dont really like you
You and your friends are dense
You dont make any sense
It's all at your expense
Cause I don't really like you, I dont really like you
Why have you done this to me
(You know I'm ready)
Oh why
I've been nice so far
But I can't take it anymore
Time passes by
And you wonder why
I'm not gonna lie
You mean nothin' to me
I don't care what you do
I don't care about you
I don't care get a clue
Cause I don't really like you, I dont really like you
You and your friends are dense
You dont make any sense
It's all at your expense
Cause I don't really like you, I dont really like you
You heard what I said
I said I dont really like you
Time passes by
And you wonder why
I'm not gonna lie
You mean nothin' to me
I don't care what you do
I don't care about you
I don't care get a clue
Cause I don't really like you, I dont really like you
You and your friends are dense
You dont make any sense
It's all at your expense
Cause I don't really like you, I dont really like you
I said I dont really like you
Current Music: SKyeSweetnam-IdontReally LIke YOu
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11:37 pm
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dnno
sry its been so long but ive been busy or unable to write in here. had 2 cheer in the rain 2day was fun but cold and we lookked fukkin halrios in the ponchos i think. sry jamie but i coudlnt. like i were 2 tell u itwas just the wrong time thanks 4 caring though. god 2 many fukkin ppl kno i have 2 be careful what i say in here . to the person u kno who u are thank u so much i have no idea what id do with out. i oculdnt ask 4 a better friends in this sitaution i feel so bad 2 put all of this on u but so happy that ur there!(its only 1 excalamton point) well hc suxed im sure most ahs ppl know the story kinda wanted 2 forget about it. i had the hottest dress it was perfect and the shoes 4 sure that suxed.
Current Mood:  nauseated
Current Music: i dont really like you-SykeSweetnam
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10:16 pm
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update
long time no write. no that ne one reads it well i guess ppl do be-cz sum1 found out about suhtign that i didnt think ne ppl i kno would kno what it meant. not that i mind its ok i trust them not to tell ne1 and i good 2 tlak 2 sum1 who know and has been through it. i feel undeserving to wear my bracelet i have to do good 4 a couple more days, ur not suppose to wear it when u do sumthing ur not proud of.im looking for pictures of what i want hopefully it will help me stay on track. i got a comment not 2 use excalamation point so i wont. r u happy>? tommrow should be fun alex i want a corset so bad. homecoming will be amazing a fuckin party buss. steve was here today (joey qoute: he's a ledgend) alex kicked him 2day. im pleading the 5th and not saying nehitng about that action. i undertsand both sides. things change aslong as its not fake and its really u it ok if its for sum1 else its not worth it (genral comment seroiusly not aimed at ne1 despite what is thought) juts a comment. i got the matchbook romance cd today-cant wait to listen to it. just a word of aduce think about what u say before you isult somehitng to sum1 for all u kno they could do the thing ur isulting-happened wednsday it makes u feel like shit. im such a cheerleader i spent an hour cumming up wiht stunt sequences and pyramids and all day at skool. ahs varsity- the cupie looked great god job. allstar- OMG i came up wiht the best fukking partner stunt routine(not sure if its 1 or 1 1/2 minute might have to be adjusted but its)
full group back handspring
backspot backhandspring
flyer walk in over backspot
back-tuk basket
reload
arabesque
double down
reload
smush
liberty
power press
heal-stretch
double down
reload to basket
bottle rocket
relaod to basket
pike
reload to basket
toe-touch
reload cupie both bases turn out
smush
scale single full
relaod
3/4 up
smush
scorpian
single full
reload
extended hands
smush
show & go
liberty
tic-toc
pretty sweet huh>? cheerleaders open 4 comments
fuck we've got our work cut out for us its just and idea probabl wont be our final routine but admited it its fukkin SWEEET
we are gonna kick fukkin ass this year
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: seether & amy lee -Broken
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02:41 pm
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bullshit/cheer/ed
4 day weekend hell yes!!!!!!!!!!!!1 no skool thank god. i cant handle anymore already. god this year is gonna be intresting. game 2 day cant cheer sux balls i have 2 sit and watch i hate breaking things!!!i got ou tof gym though.neway what else is going oh yea mia. im mostly mia not that many ppl kno and dont wanna tell ne1 esle sum1 fuckin told!!!! just tryin 2 elp but doesnt understand that as much as i sux 2 sit bak and not do anyhtugn there not muhc u can do its your chice and no1 elses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood:  bored
Current Music: Letters to Cleo-LetsGetHigh
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10:56 pm
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stuff
SUmThing 2 sHare
i wish i could tell you
i wasnt scared that ud know
afarid that youd tell
what eats me indside
what i want to scream out
thta i have to hold in
the battle i fite evryday
i fite agianst my self
my own worst enemy
outside say yes
inside says no
not you cant stop
you have to do better
you have to lose more (random thought-i will)
my throat is so sore
my vioce is so weak
my trust has been broken
not, but totaly intentionally
my choice has been taken
i want it back
why im terrified of sharing
if it reaches you and your the wrong hands
i need to listen adnd not to tell
E D
answer my yell
thought i was cool pretty good
- to those who understand
Current Mood:  scared
Current Music: Trapt- TheseWalls/Chevelle-OneLOnelyVisitor
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10:23 pm
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w/e
broken arms sux
cant cheer sux -cheer is life!!!
ed thats all i have 2 say
Current Mood:  irritated
Current Music: Goo Goo Dolls- Here is gone/BLackBallon
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02:58 pm
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Allstar cheer
does ne1 else think the new allsatr cheer divisions are the stupidest thing every. sure it prevents beginer teams from going up against memphis elite where they dont have a chance.but hen agian if u make it to nationals your should be expecting thta type of competiotin. but it should be done by size of team like it was and junior/senoir etc........... i cant believe varsity spirit and natonal sprit combined there so diffrent an the competitons are run different
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood:  crazy
Current Music: EverybodysFool-Evanescence&SkyeSweetnam-iDontReallyLikeU
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10:41 pm
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CHeER
Hey. WHat up PPL>?...... I dunoo what 2 rite but cheers not the greatest rite now. i got hurt and now i have 2 sit out. i fuckin hate sitting out.
BoyZ- Joe's changed me and alex have noticed. he's so fake aorund certian people. i like the real joe i want him back. i think ryans like scared 2 talk 2 me im he alway like say hi and waits 4 me eveerywhere im liek hunni its ok 2 talk 2 me. (U kno who u are) ur not dirty if ur dirty im sucha fukin whore. dont feel easy and used cause ur not!!!! i promise
Other StuFF- DIets suk ass. i ahve 2 lose more weight 2 cheerleading well for my self. ppl tell me im not fat i dunno im just not a skinny as i want 2 be. Eylssa- im not some crazy selfconcouis person-though im more self-concioous since thta started i doesnt rule my life.
im done
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: Broken-Seether and Amy Lee & NFG-Head on Collision
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